Из переписки с Фредом:
Me:"I feel so stupid for writing this, but whatever.
I was just watching one stupid comedy about love, hope and shit like that. And realised that I miss u so fucking much. I really want to see u. And I want to turn back the time and to have everything again. I want to lie on ur knees in JCR sleeping and I want u to kiss me again. (I still don’t admit, that I kissed u back) I want u to walk me to my room and Mr Russell to keep watching us all the time. I want to listen to our song with u." (some text missing) "I want to see you climbing on the roof again and to be fucking afraid that you will fall off. I want to go through everything what have happened in Cambridge. Absolutely everything.
I want u back"
Fred:"This is a very cute message from u and thanks for that. I agree with what u wrote, the time with u was really enjoyable, it was very nice. If u want to see me again, i m perfect with that, but i m afraid that u couldnt handle the fact that i m on the edge of having a girlfriend. I would like to know though why u seem so desperate.
mail back
fred"
Me: "i'm not desperate" blah blah blah "serious relationships is very cool especially for u"
Me, 5 min later:"u may think that this is all bullshit. but at this moment this the way my life is. Like a big black page in my history. Now everything what is really important for me goes wrong.
may be that's why it seems to u that i'm so desperate"